Truth in numbers. Two months down and feeling good.

Hard to believe only two short months ago I decided to get real about my weight gain.  Only two short months ago, I realized my eating habits were not being kind to my hips.  Only two short months ago, did I realize my wine consumption was a little out of control.  Only two short months ago did I fully grasp what I did to myself, and fully understand it was not a healthy way to live.  Only two short months ago I weighed in at 154, with a bad attitude about myself, food, and wine.

Week 7: 10 reasons why I hate losing weight

What was going on in my brain last week?

Now that I have your attention with my post title here it goes.  This is my list of 10 reasons I often use myself or hear about when trying to lose those unwanted pounds.   And these are in no particular order.  Watch out for the dose of sarcasm.

Week 6: Time to be brave. Time to be real.

Here's what I been thinking about.

My mom told me recently I am a deep thinker, a little scary if you ask me.  Ha!  But seriously, it did get me thinking about a ton of stuff the last couple of days, and yes, most of it did have to do with weight issues, but also just being honest about who I am and what this weight loss journey really means.  Time to be real, like one of my new favorite artists Mandisa would say in her song,  no more temporary fills, no more hidin'.  


Time to be brave.

Week 12: Good news on and off the scale

Last week was very draining for a variety of reasons, and one being the lack of sleep.  However, I still maintained good results on the scale, so here are my new numbers.


BMI: 24.74
Weight: 148.6
down 0.2 pounds


Losing weight is more than a smaller number on the scale, and I am still slowing learning that lesson.  I had a number of breakthroughs and revelations this past week and none of them have anything to do with the scale.  My body image is an attachment, and item inside my box that I have firmly held on to for many years.  I am finally ready to take it out of my box and replace it with truth.  But believe me, that is a hard one, and I will talk more about it later this week.  But I do want it out of the box and replaced with Christ's truth.  That may or may not translate to a smaller number on the scale, but I am also okay with that, well most days that is, let's be honest.  


A number does not define me, my identity with Christ does.

Week 5: A super week with a super attitude

So how did I do?

I titled this post super because it really was a great week.  Everything, both eating and emotions were on track and back to normal.  I am not sure what the scale will say yet, as it is also my monthly gift week, but regardless, I will not let it get me down or distract me from my goal.

Week 4: Weigh in results

Once I weighed myself I was really considering lying, but what purpose would that serve, besides I am working on changing how I view myself, and lying would not help that!  This is my first thumbs down weigh in. Oh well, time to move on and get back to a thumbs up next week.  Here are my new numbers.

BMI: 25.12

Weight : 150.8

up 1.5 pounds since last week.

Well they say the scale does not lie!  And yes, I know that to be true.  Yes, I could choose to lie to myself like I have so many times in a the past and say, it is just muscle Renee, so don't worry about anything.  The problem with that thought process is, it gives me permission to not change my eating habits or any destructive behaviors, which then leads to more weight gain, and I get further and further from my goal.  Yes, I could be getting more muscles and the muscle mass is replacing fat mass, but my goal is not become a muscle queen.  I still have too much weight on my body for my frame, therefor, pounds still need to come off.

I could say a million different things to rationalize the weight gain, but it all comes down to a choice.  Do I choose to recognize what I did as far as my eating patterns not being so great, and therefor get back to what I know I need to do, or again throw a pity party.  Well as you read in my previous post, I have been there done that, and not going back.  I already made my mistakes last week, and now the scale is letting me know, hey you got caught so cut it out if you want to reach your goal weight.  Yesterday and Monday I got back to basics and I did not let the previous weeks attitude trickle into this week.  And besides, now I can celebrate getting below 150 twice!  It is all how you look at things, and I am choosing not to dwell on the negative but move forward and regain that momentum!

Thank you and good luck!

Week 3 Weigh in day

This week I started to lack the zeal and enthusiasm for recording all my calories on my fun little app, caloriecounter.com.  However, I am pleased to say I still recorded two weekend days, Friday and Sunday and did not throw in the towel for the whole week.  I had to force myself to sit down and get everything punched in, but I did it!  And I am so thankful I did not give up because I hit a huge milestone!

Wii and Wine: Truth in Numbers: Weekly Weigh in #2

Great news!  Numbers went down!  Which means I lost most of the weight I put on during the stressful holidays.  I am now only 2 pounds away from being in the healthy BMI zone.  So without further ado here are my new numbers:

BMI : 25.23

Weight : 151.4 :)

All this means that tracking your foods (with or without the calorie amount) and exercise along with keeping the stress levels down can lead to weight loss success.  All things I already knew, but chose to forget about in the last last year or so.  Silly me, but hey, it keeps life interesting always looking for the magic weight loss pill.

Also I did drink wine three days last week, however the key was to stick to only one or two glasses a day.  And if you are a women, it is important to note, if you are going to drink wine with your meal make sure you are still getting in your dairy/calcium.  The best way I have found to accomplish that goal is, to have a glass of milk with breakfast or lunch and yogurt as a snack.

Looking forward to next week!

This post first appeared on my wine blog wineabit.net on January 19, 2012

Week 1: The dreaded weigh in.

Here is the first post I wrote on my wine blog about my weight loss journey.  Each week I will include my current weight post along with one of my old ones.  This way it will be easier to follow and see where I have been and where I am going.  Thank you!

Wii and Wine: Truth in the numbers - The weekly weigh in

I have dreaded writing this post, yet knew it would be a must if I was going to keep myself honest, posting my weekly weight.  Like most women, I either lie or avoid saying my scale number for various reasons.   I have been always embarrassed to admit what the scale said, regardless of what the results were because I was never happy with the number.  Even at my lowest weight, I was still not satisfied with the scale, as I always thought it should be lower.  And it did not help that every graph and goal weight literature I read reinforced this sick notion.  So, to help myself get over my scale fears and maybe to inspire you to do the same, every week I am going to weigh in and post that number here.

Am I a little scared, yes, however at the same time relieved.  As it is no longer a deep dark secret that only I and my moral enemy, the scale, knows about.  After all, it is only a number and it does not define who I am and what I can and cannot do in life.

My weight loss goals are also very simple and realistic for once in my life.  I am not looking to be a supermodel or a fitness model, or anything in between.  I am looking at getting back into the clothes that I already have in my closet, but are currently in the "too tight, does not fit" pile.  I am not looking for my jeans to say size 2 but to get back into the ones that say size 8.  That's it.  Should be simple, but with my history of hyper body dismorphia, it could be a challenge, but a challenge that for the first time I am ready to take head on and not hide from.

So here it goes my first set of stats!  Every Tuesday I will be weighing in on the Wii Fit using the balance board which does everything for me, and cannot cheat!

 

My current weight is: 153.2

My current BMI is: 25.53 which for me at just under 5'5" means I am slightly overweight (really!)

I set a goal to get my BMI to 24.99 which is at the top end of the healthy zone, which is only a weight loss of 4 pounds.  And my plan is to lose those pounds over the course of the next 30 days, a very reasonable goal.  I am not following any crazy weight loss or fitness plan, just writing down everything I eat, and being active.  There is no magic pill, even though I have been looking for one for my entire adult life, just eat less and move more!  Exactly what I plan on doing!  With a little wine and great food naturally:)

So wish me luck and join the fun!

This was originally published on 1/3/12

Week 11 Weigh in. Things are back on track

It's that time of the week again, weigh in day!   And I actually looked forward to this one, well not really look forward to, but at least not dread.

Here are my new numbers.

BMI: 24.79
Weight: 148.8
down about 1/2 LB:)

Yes, it was a good week back to basics and back to eating to lose.  Losing weight is really about what is going on in your head and I got my head straighten out last week.   After my gain results I knew what needed to change.  Food was placed back in it's correct category along with wine.  I had some massive temptations to revert back, and it is not easy to tell myself no, but thankfully I did.  Cheers to a new week with a frefreshed attitude.

Thank you!